没话可说了，

毕竟过了那么久

一切只能收在心里

原来

收起自己的秘密 还辛苦过 别人的秘密.

别再和我提起之前的事了

是

我在  

逃避？

还是

不想解决？

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越来越学会藏起

自己的心情

自己的心痛

自己的笨

自己的傻

自己的一切.........吧？

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你说

照片不代表什么

是吗？确定？

你自己想吧.

我只能说

你一直以来 

    都在赖

不清楚自己做的

*是否  对 还是  错

*是否  应该  还是  不应该

*是否   过分   还是  不会

连你自己都搞不懂.

那我

为什么

还

说那么多呢？

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现在的我

只是希望

快快找到工.

其他的，

不想去想那么多了

越来越模糊了

越来越陌生了

这是个好的暗号吗？

是吗？

想你的夜 MV

他
让我又不停的听回这一首个 :)

Stress causing me :

I can't sleep well every day.

I can't eat well every day.

My heartbeat getting faster.

This feeling just so sux.

And I wonder how long it takes to end all of these? 

I know this is what we have to go thru, 

But... This is torturing me to the max.

Well, I started feel numb with the pain inside my heart - 

Coz I knw, I have to get used with it.

Coz I knw, one day it will disappear. 

Coz I knw, this is the result that I deserved for not doing in the right way.

Two days passed, and it still keeps on repeating in my head. Repeat and pain... Again and again.

I feel I'm just like a foolish, yes yes yes, laughing at my ownself - what's the point torturing ownself? Who cares? Who knows? =(

I keep all up, and tighten up the alarm, reminding ownself - never ever trust/put hope on it anymore. Some thing will nvr change forever, even how long the time has passed. This is fact! 

Never ever get serious in everything 

- playing with fire is better than playing serious.. coz if u r serious, u r loser. I don't wish to lose in ur hand, never again =)

TMD

你到底怎么啦？！！

难道真的·关你的事吗？！！

你不爽些什么！！

你伤心些什么！！

你痛什么！！

你是有病吗？！！

请你，请你的手别那么多！！

Yes, I'm going be alright 

I hate when I have no people to tell, no place to share my feelings.

And yes!

those people is extremely annoying!

* ping me whenever I had updated my status, no matter about what.*

Can just stay away from me with whatever I do? What the hell motherfucker things related to you guys?

Cant I just ignore you guys' msg? Is it a necessary that I need to reply from daylight to night? Who do you think you guys are? 

From fb - wechat - LINE - instagram... and even whatsapp - I gotta close my timestamp! >.<

Annoying Annoying Annoying! It is good that no one know my blog add. Peacefully here without any stalker.

You know what? 

Everyday I'm facing stress from you guys... I'm ady feel moody from jobless, so cant you guys stop adding in the stress to me? =(

Fine, my fault from playing fire. But for those that I don't play with? my fault as well? >.<

I just wish to be alone, at least no more heart-broken like last time. I thought everything is so damn good from just being friend? Perhaps, I'm just suit to be single like he said :)

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and you! 

A 8-po you are! I don't need friend like you! Don't pretend like you are knowing me very well! You don't know what I have go thru and my condition for right now! Don't force me to block you :)

It's ok if outsider, friend feel I'm bad.. I'm just feel that I'm protecting myself, I don't care how you guys see me, because the one knows me, will definitely know what kind of people I am :) 

I am just being myself, no fake is needed :)

Oh ya

this is the way you treat me..so do I, will do the same as well

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原来
有些事真的需要用逼的.

当那一天
他对我做了那件事
我才懂
我多么的放不下你
我还记得那一晚，心痛的感觉.... 就像他要住进来而在逼走你的感觉
我还真的需要好好的检讨自己， 已经过去了  不可以再这样下去了
 .................................

有时我真的搞不懂
最近 的你
为什么每天都会找我谈天，拍下你自己的照片send给我
其实
我真的有吓到
是.... 我对你说太多了？ 我的错吗？
Hmppppphhhh...
只是不懂为什么想要对你说.

对不起