It comes to the last day of 2011

Everything should be a brand new thing after Tomorrow onwards, right?

I hope I can

*forget the things that I dislike*

*forgive people that I hate*

*faded feelings towards things that had happened*

and

moving towards my new plan, new wish, new hope :)

Happy 2012 year~ !! :)

我觉得我长大了
这些日子 我都一个人扛过
突然觉得你很好；
有哥哥疼，有朋友担心 朋友看出

明天就走了

我希望可以拿出我的心 关掉它，这样就不会感到痛苦了。

The comment was right;

you are suffering since you still have to face me everyday.

you will feel better after tomorrow.

as we will not see or contact each other.

their words were right, you should listen

to release yourself from the suffering condition.

I do really hope everything is fine for you.

as many are by your side and supporting you,

don't disappoint them :)

and i know you can make it :)

what a bad day.

this was what we facing when come to the real working life.

you can't blame anyone, just can get angry and swallow down the angriness.

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never thought,

you told me tis..

for being so long,

i never know this could be what you feel (dislike everyone who get near me)

hmmphh~bt, everything comes to the end.

at least, the words -- i kept deep inside.

:)

She said I'm silly , stupid enough..

Feel ache when making him sad?

but why he didn't feel so when he making you sad?

I have no answer for this.

perhaps, yes. I'm silly enough!

Is ok,

I knew i have put more than expected.

no choice.

Everything have to be responsible by own.

没睡的整晚

人都没力气， 没精神， 没心情

脾气都来了 >.<

我做的对吗？

这是我一直问自己的问题

看到那些结果， 不是我想要的吗？

怎么看了，我觉得很痛 >.<

顶不顺我自己！

你是什么人啊！

可以学人家那样放弃，放开，放手吗？！！

别再搞乱人家的世界， 让人家忘记 开开心心的从新来过！

原来

我错了

我以为

我已经没事

我以为

我已经不会痛

原来

我不是

通通都不是！

他说的对

外面有更多的选着， 没试不知

你该好好听他说的 :)

Hands on the keyboard

Looking at the screen

i type nothing for an hour.

Begin not dare to type, to post anything.

or should i say ; a way for me not to think too much?

Perhaps :)

Day by Day,

Night by Night..

At last it comes to the end of two more days :)

Few weeks, every day..

I have realize much and much.

and I am very sure which direction I should continue,

which direction i shouldn't turn into or shouldn't take an u-turn.

Everything is not only about myself, but both.

And is no longer like last time.

We should know to differentiate the two different world,

it just like "alien vs human".

:)

Sick attacks me out of sudden

I do really feel the heat and the suffer :(

but still i have to sit up to complete my report

F you, SICK!

What the heck you think you are?

one word to describe you : childish

don't show me your emo-ness and sadness by

deleting me in T!

you will never get back to since you are doing so :)

be responsible with what you have done!

don't expect you have lots of friends, and you are able to do so

as well as showing me your *LC-ness*.

you deserve all of these; and you should know it.

selfishness, egoism, individualism - yea - the best of the best to describe you.

24.12

每一年的圣诞节都是一样

吵架，伤心.

今年也是那样 - 只是两个人变成了单人 :)

昨晚谢了，才懂你这个朋友有多么的照顾我 保护我

羞得是像个傻婆那样，在里面哭个不停

可是真的还蛮舒服，哭得大大声 用力的哭

也依然没人听到 :x

paiseh paiseh~ 嘻嘻

答应自己， 再也不会哭 再也不会那么的傻

人家开开心心的， 而为什么我要那么的傻！

过了昨晚， 懂得 醉了 哭了 最后醒过来还是要面对事实

事实的残忍 你的残忍

谢谢你 :)

习惯隐藏痛苦，所以假装着我很好；

习惯独自孤寂，所以假装着很享受；

习惯总是微笑，所以假装着快乐；

习惯不被了解，所以假装着满不在乎

原来我每天都在假装着

倒数

倒数着 圣诞节的到来
倒数着 2012的到来
倒数着 离开的到来
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【世界唯一的你】

Song of today : 世界唯一的你

The lyrics is superb meaningful,

I like this song after has been sang by him.

touching, nice song.

I have kept repeating this song since this morning..jammed for 1.3hour, but still the same song was playing :)

and now i'm still listening it even i'm in the office.

it brings me back to many previous memories;

i just do not know why, hoping some1 will sing this to me one day

but...what it will be in that moment?

hmmphh~

怎么办

原来要放弃一个人是那么的难

怎么办呢 ? =(

每天都在写华语，因我觉得对华语有感觉. 哈哈！

每天都在update blog, 可是每次都写不出想要写的事.

每天都过着难过，辛苦的生活

我看我真的该搬出去了 :)

每天看着残忍的事情，我也得 残忍点

无论如何，我只可以和自己说 : 世界本来是那么的残忍 那么的现实

人 只是跟着世界在走； 跟着在变

变得有多快 有几多 ....没得怪

再久的感情也是一样

久了

它 会慢慢地被人忘记

对吧？

这事是他告诉我的 :)

好让我可以有个地方发泄一下，不用天天烦着人

不懂要写些什么了，

已经到不会说出来的感觉了

我每天都在痛，

那些字，那些话...通通每天都在我脑海里飘

直到.....我想碰你，那些字都会来止住我...

你也让我知道了，

再继续下去也没意思了

你要的东西 全都在现在。

也让我知道，

我真的爱错人了..

看到会很伤吗？

我看到是，

和你的伤是一样的..

我只希望时间过快点，痛都淡掉了

好让我可以忘记一切 :)

好啦，希望你能好好过你想要的生活 :)

Cannot deny,

everyone is changing once come to the big city;

just like you said even the feeling, the thing of you has gone..

no point to stay longer, no point to drag the things in anymore

你说你后悔，你说我跟其他的不一样.

通通我也会记住 ，因它们将是我最重要 - 我的药 让我记住我更加应该放下放手

谢谢你 :)

13'dec 2011

I have discovered this when i'm trying to finish up the report.

gosh~ disgusting work i have..

endless

it really never come to the end @@

Yup!sharing out this..

it is kinda true :)

"两个人在一起久了，好多年....

感情已经很稳定, 彼此了解,不会分手，觉得已经是家人, 是亲人了...

可是不能应为这样的稳定, 而忽略了生活上得细节， 从而忽略了对方的感觉...

就算再坚固的感情， 也会受伤， 也会被别人趁虎而入的

所以我们要注意这些小细节， 因为生活就是由每个小细节造成的。"

It has been some time i never update my deary blog..

as i don't want everything is so down emotion.

and i don't hope everything is know by everyone.

so i choose to keep deep inside my heart.

but then, i miss my deary blog so muchieeee~

2nd and 3rd of Dec 2011 - her big big day

and i met with many old neighbours, uncle aunties and cousins..

Out of my expectation,i never thought i will be asked the question of : when is your turn?

stunt for few seconds, and still...i don't know what to answer ==

still small? no bf? haven't work yet? or whatever else?

zip up my mouth and smile is the best one :)

at this age, never ever think or plan about marriage especially you feel you haven't really get the another one that you want.

Making someone your priority when you're only their option. #ThatWillGetYouHurt

kinda mm sek tuck that she is not staying with us anymore,

have own family :(

but wish her will stay happily after the married :)