It comes to the last day of 2011

Everything should be a brand new thing after Tomorrow onwards, right?

I hope I can

*forget the things that I dislike*

*forgive people that I hate*

*faded feelings towards things that had happened*

and

moving towards my new plan, new wish, new hope :)

Happy 2012 year~ !! :)

我觉得我长大了
这些日子 我都一个人扛过
突然觉得你很好；
有哥哥疼，有朋友担心 朋友看出

明天就走了

我希望可以拿出我的心 关掉它，这样就不会感到痛苦了。

The comment was right;

you are suffering since you still have to face me everyday.

you will feel better after tomorrow.

as we will not see or contact each other.

their words were right, you should listen

to release yourself from the suffering condition.

I do really hope everything is fine for you.

as many are by your side and supporting you,

don't disappoint them :)

and i know you can make it :)

what a bad day.

this was what we facing when come to the real working life.

you can't blame anyone, just can get angry and swallow down the angriness.

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.

.

never thought,

you told me tis..

for being so long,

i never know this could be what you feel (dislike everyone who get near me)

hmmphh~bt, everything comes to the end.

at least, the words -- i kept deep inside.

:)

She said I'm silly , stupid enough..

Feel ache when making him sad?

but why he didn't feel so when he making you sad?

I have no answer for this.

perhaps, yes. I'm silly enough!

Is ok,

I knew i have put more than expected.

no choice.

Everything have to be responsible by own.

没睡的整晚

人都没力气， 没精神， 没心情

脾气都来了 >.<

我做的对吗？

这是我一直问自己的问题

看到那些结果， 不是我想要的吗？

怎么看了，我觉得很痛 >.<

顶不顺我自己！

你是什么人啊！

可以学人家那样放弃，放开，放手吗？！！

别再搞乱人家的世界， 让人家忘记 开开心心的从新来过！

原来

我错了

我以为

我已经没事

我以为

我已经不会痛

原来

我不是

通通都不是！

他说的对

外面有更多的选着， 没试不知

你该好好听他说的 :)

Hands on the keyboard

Looking at the screen

i type nothing for an hour.

Begin not dare to type, to post anything.

or should i say ; a way for me not to think too much?

Perhaps :)

Day by Day,

Night by Night..

At last it comes to the end of two more days :)

Few weeks, every day..

I have realize much and much.

and I am very sure which direction I should continue,

which direction i shouldn't turn into or shouldn't take an u-turn.

Everything is not only about myself, but both.

And is no longer like last time.

We should know to differentiate the two different world,

it just like "alien vs human".

:)

Sick attacks me out of sudden

I do really feel the heat and the suffer :(

but still i have to sit up to complete my report

F you, SICK!

What the heck you think you are?

one word to describe you : childish

don't show me your emo-ness and sadness by

deleting me in T!

you will never get back to since you are doing so :)

be responsible with what you have done!

don't expect you have lots of friends, and you are able to do so

as well as showing me your *LC-ness*.

you deserve all of these; and you should know it.

selfishness, egoism, individualism - yea - the best of the best to describe you.

24.12

每一年的圣诞节都是一样

吵架，伤心.

今年也是那样 - 只是两个人变成了单人 :)

昨晚谢了，才懂你这个朋友有多么的照顾我 保护我

羞得是像个傻婆那样，在里面哭个不停

可是真的还蛮舒服，哭得大大声 用力的哭

也依然没人听到 :x

paiseh paiseh~ 嘻嘻

答应自己， 再也不会哭 再也不会那么的傻

人家开开心心的， 而为什么我要那么的傻！

过了昨晚， 懂得 醉了 哭了 最后醒过来还是要面对事实

事实的残忍 你的残忍

谢谢你 :)

习惯隐藏痛苦，所以假装着我很好；

习惯独自孤寂，所以假装着很享受；

习惯总是微笑，所以假装着快乐；

习惯不被了解，所以假装着满不在乎

原来我每天都在假装着

倒数

倒数着 圣诞节的到来
倒数着 2012的到来
倒数着 离开的到来
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【世界唯一的你】

Song of today : 世界唯一的你

The lyrics is superb meaningful,

I like this song after has been sang by him.

touching, nice song.

I have kept repeating this song since this morning..jammed for 1.3hour, but still the same song was playing :)

and now i'm still listening it even i'm in the office.

it brings me back to many previous memories;

i just do not know why, hoping some1 will sing this to me one day

but...what it will be in that moment?

hmmphh~

怎么办

原来要放弃一个人是那么的难

怎么办呢 ? =(

每天都在写华语，因我觉得对华语有感觉. 哈哈！

每天都在update blog, 可是每次都写不出想要写的事.

每天都过着难过，辛苦的生活

我看我真的该搬出去了 :)

每天看着残忍的事情，我也得 残忍点

无论如何，我只可以和自己说 : 世界本来是那么的残忍 那么的现实

人 只是跟着世界在走； 跟着在变

变得有多快 有几多 ....没得怪

再久的感情也是一样

久了

它 会慢慢地被人忘记

对吧？

这事是他告诉我的 :)

好让我可以有个地方发泄一下，不用天天烦着人

不懂要写些什么了，

已经到不会说出来的感觉了

我每天都在痛，

那些字，那些话...通通每天都在我脑海里飘

直到.....我想碰你，那些字都会来止住我...

你也让我知道了，

再继续下去也没意思了

你要的东西 全都在现在。

也让我知道，

我真的爱错人了..

看到会很伤吗？

我看到是，

和你的伤是一样的..

我只希望时间过快点，痛都淡掉了

好让我可以忘记一切 :)

好啦，希望你能好好过你想要的生活 :)

Cannot deny,

everyone is changing once come to the big city;

just like you said even the feeling, the thing of you has gone..

no point to stay longer, no point to drag the things in anymore

你说你后悔，你说我跟其他的不一样.

通通我也会记住 ，因它们将是我最重要 - 我的药 让我记住我更加应该放下放手

谢谢你 :)

13'dec 2011

I have discovered this when i'm trying to finish up the report.

gosh~ disgusting work i have..

endless

it really never come to the end @@

Yup!sharing out this..

it is kinda true :)

"两个人在一起久了，好多年....

感情已经很稳定, 彼此了解,不会分手，觉得已经是家人, 是亲人了...

可是不能应为这样的稳定, 而忽略了生活上得细节， 从而忽略了对方的感觉...

就算再坚固的感情， 也会受伤， 也会被别人趁虎而入的

所以我们要注意这些小细节， 因为生活就是由每个小细节造成的。"

It has been some time i never update my deary blog..

as i don't want everything is so down emotion.

and i don't hope everything is know by everyone.

so i choose to keep deep inside my heart.

but then, i miss my deary blog so muchieeee~

2nd and 3rd of Dec 2011 - her big big day

and i met with many old neighbours, uncle aunties and cousins..

Out of my expectation,i never thought i will be asked the question of : when is your turn?

stunt for few seconds, and still...i don't know what to answer ==

still small? no bf? haven't work yet? or whatever else?

zip up my mouth and smile is the best one :)

at this age, never ever think or plan about marriage especially you feel you haven't really get the another one that you want.

Making someone your priority when you're only their option. #ThatWillGetYouHurt

kinda mm sek tuck that she is not staying with us anymore,

have own family :(

but wish her will stay happily after the married :)

空荡荡的房间，

看了真的觉得很难过..

看着四周围，一切的回忆飘回来了..

两个人的世界变成了一个人，

难以接受的事实..

也永远只剩下回忆了

开始对它失去了信任,

还是我已经看见这世界的现实？

还是我已经没了那些天真，以为会有奇迹，有好的结果的看法?

开始不敢对它有任何的希望，

因希望越大失望也一样的大

开始不敢看它看得那么的重要了

起码酱不会伤害到自己，而不会伤的那么的深

开始不想再去碰它了，

不碰 就代表着 不理 不听 不看 也不管

也许酱可以找回方向，找回自我，找回快乐

而

我也不是属于它的世界

“原来”分手需要練習的

談起關於你的話題
終於可以不用缺席
甚至還表現得不再關心
從前你是傷的痕跡
現在不過是場回憶
忽遠 忽近

我怕的是低潮來襲
這城市哪裡夠隱密
藏住我突然想哭的情緒
寧願失去鬥志勇氣
好過和你冷戰推擠
這樣 誰輸得起

原來分手是需要練習的
等時間久了會變勇敢的
你慢慢出走 我漸漸放手
這不就是 我們要的自由

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空 不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱 往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候 不難過

我怕的是低潮來襲
這城市哪裡夠隱密
藏住我突然想哭的情緒
寧願失去鬥志勇氣
好過和你冷戰推擠
這樣 誰輸得起

原來分手是需要練習的
等時間久了會變勇敢的
你慢慢出走 我漸漸放手
這不就是 我們要的自由

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空 不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱 往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候 不難過

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空 不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱 往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候 不難過

it suits me :)

wake up early in the morning,

after the bad dream, that's why I'm awake...

totally spoilt my mood for today

>.<

and I really wondering,why this kind of dream will appear...

Dear God,

i have enough with the torturing, and i don't need it during my sleeping time..

or you think that my torturing for everyday is still not achieve your demand yet?

pls, don't test me any more...

i have already giving back everything to you

i just need little space to breathe,

just little bit :(

The world is changing
or should say this is the world that i not belong to.
out of 10, how many are good and loyal guy?
as many said ; a guy will changed once they are married as they are grow older.
but, mostly what i saw and heard are totally vice versa.

married,wish for baby but still flirting around ==

if you think you like to flirt around, so pls dun get married and hurt the one..

same case again again and again..

and how many girls will still believe in love?

失望

我对你真的很失望...

你从来没问过 ‘我好吗’， ‘过得怎么样了’

而往往只是顾你自己的事情，

当发生了事，你才懂得来找我.

为何你可以那么的自私.

每次只会投诉她人，

如果不，就不会和我说多了.

对你真的很死心

请你记住你旺旺那样的对人，
未来

别来投诉我，不理你 不管你 或 不关心你.

这一切都是你自己造成的！

我也要谢你对我的冷落

让我一个人的面对，

我才知道我应该要更坚强 :)

Worry

internship?

road?

accommodation?

independent?

all these come across my mind,

which i have to handle,settle by my own.

*should i ask for their help?

*what should i explain if they asked me what has happened?

*should i tell them what's the situation now?

*what? how? what? how?

my brain is fulled with bunch of questions,

i really don't know what to do, how to solve.

i know i have to accept it, i know i have to wake up to face the reality.

but who's going to help me.?

*crossed fingers*

As everyone says :

time is the only solution to cure the pain,

as time flies, it will be able to faded away everything....

and

this is what we are waiting for ,

(take care)

不说

不听

.

我只想静一静

Dream Room

I wish to own a room.

a room that will be decorated according to my like :)

the pinkness of the room, the light, the bed, the picture, the wardrobe...everything

jealous arised once i saw her room, which is comfortable and like a princess room that i wishes for since long ago...

but when only my turn to own this kind of room?

hmmppp~~

waiting for this day to come

:(

the story of us ~

which had begun since 3years ago,

it comes to the end

11 Mac 2008 - 30 July 2011

Hope you will be doing well as what you'r wishing for :)

你不知道的事

原来 ，牺牲

不代表

好的结果.

反而，牺牲

带来了更多的心碎.

其实

你不懂

我有多努力

你一点都不懂

你的一举一动，你的字

你的被动，你的残忍

一直一直的在我脑海里...

是你的暗号告诉我 过去了？ 结束了？

难以形容的痛， 就像流血那样 ....

一直的流不停...

Big Mistake

The biggest mistake that i've made.

till me myself couldn't really accept it,

the guiltiness fell deep inside my heart.

i did consider deeply before i done it, but i couldn't stop myself from doing that :(

It's too late to apologize.

hope it wont happen again.

No! the same thing shouldn't happen again!

小时候

每个人都会讲着

长大了过后

你想要的白马王子会是什么样呢？

原来，

事实上…… 不是那样.

通通都会相反.

你就会感到

上帝，

其实在作弄人们.

当得不到，你就会调低哪些要求了….

可是 再低，也很难得到你想要的

就算是想通了 ： let it go, let it go

为什么还往往的还做不到呢？

该怎么办才好.

怎么啦

生病了吗？

它 又来找你了吗？

没关系， 只要和自己说 ： 看开点，想开点 ....... 一切还会很好的 :)

只要努力点， 再放多点 ...... 它就会走了 :)

180611

It was Saturday nite! woots.

they were purposely back from sg for the 2-off-days.
no place to hang out in ti,so we had went to ipoh - barroom.
err, a small place for "clubbing". but we have no choice :/
LOL.
the first time we went to club and took for so many pic,as we were too boring at there xD

Birthday

The one week earlier celebration from the 38gang,

with the big burger which was bought from Vegas.

that was a simple celebration - birthday song, "cut" the burger and snap pic.

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.

.

.

12am of 21st june 2011 :

*making wish* :D

my favourite, yum yum!

the fatboi xD

Phobia

The second time i met the P thing, after 10years ago.

It was totally so horrible, and i can't imagine what will happen

if....

i didn't lock the door =(

started feel insecure with everything.

even one step once out from the house.

started feel worry if i'm alone.

what will it be?

=(

简单？复杂？

简单的生活一点都不简单

以为每天可以在一起，

不吵架，

不做伤害对方的事 .....

我就很满足 很开心了.

酱，有很难吗？

可是， 原来一切也很难办得到.

别对我说那是一件很普通的事， 有多普通啊？

再普通也伤了我.

别和我说那些千万个理由， 我不喜欢！

那通通都不是理由！不是！！

你的一句不喜欢，伤心 我通通都不敢再去碰了.

而你呢？

只能怪自己笨，自己太单纯

=)

Sick

I have been sick for almost one week.

but till now...

it still stick to me.

Should self-blame! as i didn't take good care of myself even i'm sick.

actually it was a good lesson ,

when i found that i was suffer like hell after the drinks.

not much i have drank, yet... i vomit like hell, pain like hell.

huh? i knew i deserved it ;P

but at least.....

i didn't drunk :D

一滴眼泪

很值得.

起码它把我打醒了

原来担心都有错的！

那一刻开始，我就叫我自己别傻了

地球每一分每一秒都在转

就像人生那样，每一刻都在变

怕 ， 担心 又如何？

无论发生什么事都要面对

一切都是 上天 你给我的考验

对吧？

My last semester break :(

kinda upset that i'm going to graduate soon,

no more "ponteng" life.

and this holiday supposedly full with what i've planned.

but now, everything had ruined since so many problems occurred.

Sigh ~ have to worry about this and that, and

they thought i'm a superwoman ,

i have to take care of this and that.

Life really sux!

Getting sick and suffering for it now.

no ones taking care, and yet i have to do the housework :(

Being bored with G life, start to dislike with it.

yay! i'm definitely sure I am!

我怎么啦？

我真的搞不懂

为什么要那么的为难自己

不是说好了要好好疼自己的吗？

我又要和你说 对不起了

因没办法办得到

我

很想放弃了

真的很想很想

我要好好疼你， 难为了你这三年

让你受苦了

对不起

逼自己一定要放手

这一次一定要！

不再去理他要怎么样的生活了

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I hate u.

I HATE U!

IMY

Today is A Memorable Day

as i never face this situation since i started to stay here 3years ago..

it was so horrible!

thunderstorm , heavy rain .....

and it caused the road to flood!

gosh~ you will never expect this will happen to Kampar~!!

the level of water is damn high

and luckily, my friends were here...

if they didn't go down and have a look,

i think my car will totally gone ><

and now.... i started to scare once it rains T.T

Can you believe this?