Feel to express so many things in here, actually..

but i really don't know where should begin

everything is so messy.

I hate it!

she said it will become a habit when u practice it more frequently.

really?

i cant see the result from what i have done.

how frequently i tried to make it to become a habit, how long time i had used to make it to become a habit.....

but what i got is equal to zero.

perhaps,

nothing can be forced

and

things....

actually doesn't change so easily even it is just a small case...

but...then,

how about the more serious matter if the small one cant even success?