其实我不快乐

唱出我的心声

“其實我很不快樂　想躲進暗黑街角 淚再可痛快地流落　不知哪日會對愛再有感覺 和誰人在一起　都用來共你相比 就算了不起　只可做到我知己 誰若寄望替代你　最尾都要放棄　只好退避 和誰在一起　很自然共你相比”

我很不开心，

该怎么办

=(

Tendered letter, and I'm so free for this month.
Doing lesser work and just waiting 630pm  off work, actually not what I wanted.
Instead, I wish I would be able to utilize all working time.
It's ok if I got lots things to do everyday, and finish on time without OT everyday, perhaps, I will stay.

Well, I'm too free now - facing tp, typing blog using my ip, as I realize I don't know what else I can do after fb...read the star...check mail box...read blog...what else? =(

Reading back own posts in blog and others' blog, that kind of feeling is really...hard to describe. Blog just to express out our feelings at that moment, what about after some time? Do we still have the same feeling?
Doubt with it.

Everyday wake up fulled of unhappiness, forcing myself to wakeup, go through it. I really wonder, how long could I stand on it? Can I break the promise I've made from you? :(

I have no idea what should I do. Sigh

人是自私的，对吧？
不开心，闷时， 或 有事情 .... 才会来找你，对你诉苦
拜托！我真的很讨厌！
我真的很想大大声的骂你，你懂吗！

时间 一天一天的过
有些事，根本都不会改变
奇迹？ 我想是我太天真了吧~
人家说啊~ 当你有太多的失望， 你就会放手了， 你就会看谈了

对生活真真的很累，
当需要你时，我懂....你根本都不会再出现了
也许， 是我 在逃避， 过不去

真的
只希望
你这个魔鬼
会消失了

曾经以为有你，我就足够，
之后发现原来是错的.
那些以为该散掉， 你...我也该放掉 忘掉
不该再继续错下去了
因为我要的 你，原来不存在
觉得好失去方向，失去自我 (-.-)

我的好兄弟

I just don't know why I started to love tis song.
It just like a song that represent him, the song he like the most.
Even we are just normal friend, but the feeling of miss you appeared.
Till now, still cant accept that you had leaved.
The time when this song is playing, the memories that we chat, we hang out and we joke... all popped up.
Totally forgot when was the last time we had talked to each other.
It seems.... no more chance.

Your words made me awake.
And I realize how far I should distance myself from you.
I force myself laughing and smiling all the time from now onwards, to hide up all the feelings.
I force myself talk non-stop to prevent from being look unhappy and from being ask by friends.
I will Never be selfish anymore; just like what I had told her - even thought you still love that people, but doesn't mean you can stay with him forever.
We have no choice, we have to force ourself to quit the game, instead of making ownself and him.... from being unhappy.

If I would be able turn back the time, I wish we nvr start before. At least....you can enjoy and stay your life happily. At least.... we are still friend for now :)