Pieces Of Me

2012-01-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

It comes to the end of cny

and it is time for us to back to real life

I was so happy when i get to know the result of internship had released.

The status stated : completion of study!

which means,

I'm OFFICIALLY GRADUATED! :D

Ta daaah~~

2012-01-30T21:57:00.002+08:00

I have stepped out the first step of mine

by getting used of not seeing anything

yea~ good one! :)

a right way a good start, which lead me to a better mood ....

and I will continue with my previous promises and makes the complicated to simple from now onwards!

2012-01-16T22:46:00.006+08:00

thank you for tearing my heart into pieces, from what you done on Last friday :)

It just like what he had done to me - 7 years ago

and

i'm going to use a similar way to get you away from my heart,

as I don't deserve the things you do.

Thank you :)

3/1.5/1

2012-01-06T18:27:00.002+08:00

那天

回到kampar~

突然很想念住在哪儿的日子

那些

1095 天都和你一起的日子

走到哪都有你的影子

那些开心，不开心的通通都跑出来了

那天

真的很想留下

他告诉了我一些事

我才发觉到；原来我都不懂

反而，她还清楚过我

感觉到，4年好像白过了

一个和你不熟的人都比我还要清楚

他问我；是为了什么？

也许他说得对

我只可以在这儿和你说；我也不想那样，本性难改，所以我才选着了离开

那誰沒有下次

2012-01-06T10:30:00.001+08:00

「你坐喺電腦前面,嘗試喺搜尋引擎器裡面輸入"how to forget",自動彈出的第一個聯想語句,亦即是全球被搜尋次數最多的語句,係"how to forget someone"... 」

你和那誰那天分手
你淚痕像條綠色的銹
頑固地種在眼睛一角直到永久抹不走

但是浮游在生活亂流
你那新生你也必須接受
就算多悔咎自責別太久
不要戀戀心裡那個傷口

渡日月穿山水
尚在恨那~誰
誰曾無堅不摧
摧毀的廢墟
一早變做你美好新居
創疤你不挖亦不知有過在這裡

淚疊淚風一吹
漸莫辨那~誰
連重提往事也不再絕對
她怎傷害你講起你沒再吐苦水

「怎樣先可以將一個人忘記得一乾二淨? 我可以好肯定咁樣話比你知：冇方法.
你話...感覺會隨時間丟淡,我明呀,問題係我而家好唔開心啊...」

有時你還覺得溫馨
這淚流像存在的表證
沒有恨過便更加彷似白過半生冷清清

像突然忘掉尊姓大名
卻記得她教你差點喪命
是創傷太重或覺悟太輕
使你不懂釋放怨懟的根性

渡日月穿山水
尚在恨那~誰
誰曾無堅不摧
摧毀的廢墟
一早變做你美好新居
創疤你不挖亦不知有過在這裡

淚疊淚風一吹
漸莫辨那~誰
連重提往事也不再絕對
她怎傷害你感恩替代了那苦水

誰沒兩個致命舊愛侶
不見得就要聽到春天也恐懼
可以不唏噓可以不心虛放低跨過去

「其實呢...「放膽去愛」係好犀利,你知唔知道點解呢個世界咁悶?因為十居其九都是「肯學就識」的事.「放膽去愛」唔同!「放膽去愛」是學唔嚟架,唔係人人得架,而你竟然識啊!」

渡日月穿山水
尚在恨那~誰
誰曾無堅不摧
摧毀的廢墟
一早變做了滿山青翠
敏感處不碰便不知你葬著心碎

若舊夢不堪追
就別問那~誰
從何時你學會灑脫面對

「愛都識咯,學埋放手啦...」

她怎傷害你可否就當做老天完整你那沒挫敗波折一生之旅
功德圓滿方可愛下去帶笑歸去

「啊!!唔記得咗講,你原本想喺搜尋引擎裡面輸入"how to forget" ...但當你輸入到"how to F O R G" 嘅時候...搜尋器會自動彈出一句"how to forgive yourself".... ]

*nice one ♥♥♥ especially what the girl had said (:*

2012-01-05T14:53:00.002+08:00

听到他说你的事

觉得你生活到不错

是个好的开始哦 ;)

别牢牢弄得自己那么的不开心，

我知道你可以更好的

新的环境

新的朋友

都是你想要的生活~

你该好好珍惜啊 :)

2012-01-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

如果可以

我想去个没有人认识我的地方

呆在那

一个人的生活

真的很想很想一个人去旅行

去个我很想去的地方

看着海，看着日出日落，听着海声，坐在海边

我已经很满足了 :)

也许，

我真该停下来了

让一切都停下来

我真的累了.

2012-01-02T04:07:00.002+08:00

对不起 :(

我真的不懂该怎么样

以前的你.....都不会那样

你写的每一句；搞到我觉得自己很残忍很冷血

睡不着，

也不想回

喜欢每天都想昨晚酱，去兜兜风

2012-01-01T20:42:00.001+08:00

第一天的离开，

原来一点都不好受

2011-12-31T13:05:00.002+08:00

It comes to the last day of 2011

Everything should be a brand new thing after Tomorrow onwards, right?

I hope I can

*forget the things that I dislike*

*forgive people that I hate*

*faded feelings towards things that had happened*

and

moving towards my new plan, new wish, new hope :)

Happy 2012 year~ !! :)

2011-12-30T17:31:00.002+08:00

我觉得我长大了
这些日子我都一个人扛过
突然觉得你很好；
有哥哥疼，有朋友担心朋友看出

明天就走了

我希望可以拿出我的心关掉它，这样就不会感到痛苦了。

2011-12-30T11:04:00.002+08:00

The comment was right;

you are suffering since you still have to face me everyday.

you will feel better after tomorrow.

as we will not see or contact each other.

their words were right, you should listen

to release yourself from the suffering condition.

I do really hope everything is fine for you.

as many are by your side and supporting you,

don't disappoint them :)

and i know you can make it :)

2011-12-29T14:35:00.002+08:00

what a bad day.

this was what we facing when come to the real working life.

you can't blame anyone, just can get angry and swallow down the angriness.

never thought,

you told me tis..

for being so long,

i never know this could be what you feel (dislike everyone who get near me)

hmmphh~bt, everything comes to the end.

at least, the words -- i kept deep inside.

2011-12-29T09:51:00.002+08:00

She said I'm silly , stupid enough..

Feel ache when making him sad?

but why he didn't feel so when he making you sad?

I have no answer for this.

perhaps, yes. I'm silly enough!

Is ok,

I knew i have put more than expected.

no choice.

Everything have to be responsible by own.

2011-12-29T08:51:00.002+08:00

没睡的整晚

人都没力气，没精神，没心情

脾气都来了 >.<

我做的对吗？

这是我一直问自己的问题

看到那些结果，不是我想要的吗？

怎么看了，我觉得很痛 >.<

顶不顺我自己！

你是什么人啊！

可以学人家那样放弃，放开，放手吗？！！

别再搞乱人家的世界，让人家忘记开开心心的从新来过！

2011-12-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

原来

我错了

我以为

我已经没事

我以为

我已经不会痛

原来

我不是

通通都不是！

他说的对

外面有更多的选着，没试不知

你该好好听他说的 :)

2011-12-28T16:32:00.004+08:00

Hands on the keyboard

Looking at the screen

i type nothing for an hour.

Begin not dare to type, to post anything.

or should i say ; a way for me not to think too much?

Perhaps :)

Day by Day,

Night by Night..

At last it comes to the end of two more days :)

Few weeks, every day..

I have realize much and much.

and I am very sure which direction I should continue,

which direction i shouldn't turn into or shouldn't take an u-turn.

Everything is not only about myself, but both.

And is no longer like last time.

We should know to differentiate the two different world,

it just like "alien vs human".

Sick attacks me out of sudden

I do really feel the heat and the suffer :(

but still i have to sit up to complete my report

F you, SICK!

2011-12-27T10:07:00.003+08:00

What the heck you think you are?

one word to describe you : childish

don't show me your emo-ness and sadness by

deleting me in T!

you will never get back to since you are doing so :)

be responsible with what you have done!

don't expect you have lots of friends, and you are able to do so

as well as showing me your *LC-ness*.

you deserve all of these; and you should know it.

selfishness, egoism, individualism - yea - the best of the best to describe you.

24.12

2011-12-26T00:19:00.003+08:00

每一年的圣诞节都是一样

吵架，伤心.

今年也是那样 - 只是两个人变成了单人 :)

昨晚谢了，才懂你这个朋友有多么的照顾我保护我

羞得是像个傻婆那样，在里面哭个不停

可是真的还蛮舒服，哭得大大声用力的哭

也依然没人听到 :x

paiseh paiseh~ 嘻嘻

答应自己，再也不会哭再也不会那么的傻

人家开开心心的，而为什么我要那么的傻！

过了昨晚，懂得醉了哭了最后醒过来还是要面对事实

事实的残忍你的残忍

谢谢你 :)

2011-12-23T08:55:00.001+08:00

习惯隐藏痛苦，所以假装着我很好；

习惯独自孤寂，所以假装着很享受；

习惯总是微笑，所以假装着快乐；

习惯不被了解，所以假装着满不在乎

原来我每天都在假装着

倒数

2011-12-20T14:09:00.001+08:00

倒数着圣诞节的到来
倒数着 2012的到来
倒数着离开的到来
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.
.
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【世界唯一的你】

2011-12-16T10:55:00.002+08:00

Song of today : 世界唯一的你

The lyrics is superb meaningful,

I like this song after has been sang by him.

touching, nice song.

I have kept repeating this song since this morning..jammed for 1.3hour, but still the same song was playing :)

and now i'm still listening it even i'm in the office.

it brings me back to many previous memories;

i just do not know why, hoping some1 will sing this to me one day

but...what it will be in that moment?

hmmphh~

2011-12-15T12:36:00.002+08:00

怎么办

原来要放弃一个人是那么的难

怎么办呢 ? =(

2011-12-15T10:00:00.003+08:00

每天都在写华语，因我觉得对华语有感觉. 哈哈！

每天都在update blog, 可是每次都写不出想要写的事.

每天都过着难过，辛苦的生活

我看我真的该搬出去了 :)

每天看着残忍的事情，我也得残忍点

无论如何，我只可以和自己说 : 世界本来是那么的残忍那么的现实

人只是跟着世界在走；跟着在变

变得有多快有几多 ....没得怪

再久的感情也是一样

2011-12-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

久了

它会慢慢地被人忘记

对吧？

这事是他告诉我的 :)

好让我可以有个地方发泄一下，不用天天烦着人

不懂要写些什么了，

已经到不会说出来的感觉了

我每天都在痛，

那些字，那些话...通通每天都在我脑海里飘

直到.....我想碰你，那些字都会来止住我...

你也让我知道了，

再继续下去也没意思了

你要的东西全都在现在。

也让我知道，

我真的爱错人了..

看到会很伤吗？

我看到是，

和你的伤是一样的..

我只希望时间过快点，痛都淡掉了

好让我可以忘记一切 :)

好啦，希望你能好好过你想要的生活 :)

2011-12-13T14:51:00.002+08:00

Cannot deny,

everyone is changing once come to the big city;

just like you said even the feeling, the thing of you has gone..

no point to stay longer, no point to drag the things in anymore

你说你后悔，你说我跟其他的不一样.

通通我也会记住，因它们将是我最重要 - 我的药让我记住我更加应该放下放手

谢谢你 :)

13'dec 2011

2011-12-12T15:18:00.001+08:00

2011-12-09T12:47:00.003+08:00

I have discovered this when i'm trying to finish up the report.

gosh~ disgusting work i have..

endless

it really never come to the end @@

Yup!sharing out this..

it is kinda true :)

"两个人在一起久了，好多年....

感情已经很稳定, 彼此了解,不会分手，觉得已经是家人, 是亲人了...

可是不能应为这样的稳定, 而忽略了生活上得细节，从而忽略了对方的感觉...

就算再坚固的感情，也会受伤，也会被别人趁虎而入的

所以我们要注意这些小细节，因为生活就是由每个小细节造成的。"

2011-12-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

It has been some time i never update my deary blog..

as i don't want everything is so down emotion.

and i don't hope everything is know by everyone.

so i choose to keep deep inside my heart.

but then, i miss my deary blog so muchieeee~

2nd and 3rd of Dec 2011 - her big big day

and i met with many old neighbours, uncle aunties and cousins..

Out of my expectation,i never thought i will be asked the question of : when is your turn?

stunt for few seconds, and still...i don't know what to answer ==

still small? no bf? haven't work yet? or whatever else?

zip up my mouth and smile is the best one :)

at this age, never ever think or plan about marriage especially you feel you haven't really get the another one that you want.

Making someone your priority when you're only their option. #ThatWillGetYouHurt

kinda mm sek tuck that she is not staying with us anymore,

have own family :(

but wish her will stay happily after the married :)

2011-08-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

空荡荡的房间，

看了真的觉得很难过..

看着四周围，一切的回忆飘回来了..

两个人的世界变成了一个人，

难以接受的事实..

也永远只剩下回忆了

2011-08-22T16:57:00.003+08:00

开始对它失去了信任,

还是我已经看见这世界的现实？

还是我已经没了那些天真，以为会有奇迹，有好的结果的看法?

开始不敢对它有任何的希望，

因希望越大失望也一样的大

开始不敢看它看得那么的重要了

起码酱不会伤害到自己，而不会伤的那么的深

开始不想再去碰它了，

不碰就代表着不理不听不看也不管

也许酱可以找回方向，找回自我，找回快乐

而

我也不是属于它的世界

“原来”分手需要練習的

2011-08-18T10:08:00.002+08:00

談起關於你的話題
終於可以不用缺席
甚至還表現得不再關心
從前你是傷的痕跡
現在不過是場回憶
忽遠忽近

我怕的是低潮來襲
這城市哪裡夠隱密
藏住我突然想哭的情緒
寧願失去鬥志勇氣
好過和你冷戰推擠
這樣誰輸得起

原來分手是需要練習的
等時間久了會變勇敢的
你慢慢出走我漸漸放手
這不就是我們要的自由

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候不難過

我怕的是低潮來襲
這城市哪裡夠隱密
藏住我突然想哭的情緒
寧願失去鬥志勇氣
好過和你冷戰推擠
這樣誰輸得起

原來分手是需要練習的
等時間久了會變勇敢的
你慢慢出走我漸漸放手
這不就是我們要的自由

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候不難過

原來分手是需要練習的
等傷口好了會變輕鬆的
海闊天空不殘留一點痛
回頭看怕懦弱往前走怕墜落
但我一定能學會
在想你的時候不難過

it suits me :)

2011-08-18T08:04:00.000+08:00

wake up early in the morning,

after the bad dream, that's why I'm awake...

totally spoilt my mood for today

>.<

and I really wondering,why this kind of dream will appear...

Dear God,

i have enough with the torturing, and i don't need it during my sleeping time..

or you think that my torturing for everyday is still not achieve your demand yet?

pls, don't test me any more...

i have already giving back everything to you

i just need little space to breathe,

just little bit :(

2011-08-13T21:33:00.003+08:00

The world is changing
or should say this is the world that i not belong to.
out of 10, how many are good and loyal guy?
as many said ; a guy will changed once they are married as they are grow older.
but, mostly what i saw and heard are totally vice versa.

married,wish for baby but still flirting around ==

if you think you like to flirt around, so pls dun get married and hurt the one..

same case again again and again..

and how many girls will still believe in love?

2011-08-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

失望

我对你真的很失望...

你从来没问过 ‘我好吗’， ‘过得怎么样了’

而往往只是顾你自己的事情，

当发生了事，你才懂得来找我.

为何你可以那么的自私.

每次只会投诉她人，

如果不，就不会和我说多了.

对你真的很死心

请你记住你旺旺那样的对人，
未来

别来投诉我，不理你不管你或不关心你.

这一切都是你自己造成的！

我也要谢你对我的冷落

让我一个人的面对，

我才知道我应该要更坚强 :)

Worry

2011-08-05T12:36:00.002+08:00

internship?

road?

accommodation?

independent?

all these come across my mind,

which i have to handle,settle by my own.

*should i ask for their help?

*what should i explain if they asked me what has happened?

*should i tell them what's the situation now?

*what? how? what? how?

my brain is fulled with bunch of questions,

i really don't know what to do, how to solve.

i know i have to accept it, i know i have to wake up to face the reality.

but who's going to help me.?

*crossed fingers*

2011-08-03T02:51:00.002+08:00

As everyone says :

time is the only solution to cure the pain,

as time flies, it will be able to faded away everything....

and

this is what we are waiting for ,

(take care)

2011-08-02T20:44:00.001+08:00

不说

不听

我只想静一静

Dream Room

2011-08-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

I wish to own a room.

a room that will be decorated according to my like :)

the pinkness of the room, the light, the bed, the picture, the wardrobe...everything

jealous arised once i saw her room, which is comfortable and like a princess room that i wishes for since long ago...

but when only my turn to own this kind of room?

hmmppp~~

waiting for this day to come

2011-07-30T17:20:00.003+08:00

the story of us ~

which had begun since 3years ago,

it comes to the end

11 Mac 2008 - 30 July 2011

Hope you will be doing well as what you'r wishing for :)

你不知道的事

2011-07-29T14:52:00.000+08:00

原来，牺牲

不代表

好的结果.

反而，牺牲

带来了更多的心碎.

其实

你不懂

我有多努力

你一点都不懂

2011-07-26T16:35:00.000+08:00

你的一举一动，你的字

你的被动，你的残忍

一直一直的在我脑海里...

是你的暗号告诉我过去了？结束了？

难以形容的痛，就像流血那样 ....

一直的流不停...

Big Mistake

2011-07-03T00:09:00.001+08:00

The biggest mistake that i've made.

till me myself couldn't really accept it,

the guiltiness fell deep inside my heart.

i did consider deeply before i done it, but i couldn't stop myself from doing that :(

It's too late to apologize.

hope it wont happen again.

No! the same thing shouldn't happen again!

2011-07-01T15:56:00.002+08:00

小时候

每个人都会讲着

长大了过后

你想要的白马王子会是什么样呢？

原来，

事实上…… 不是那样.

通通都会相反.

你就会感到

上帝，

其实在作弄人们.

当得不到，你就会调低哪些要求了….

可是再低，也很难得到你想要的

就算是想通了： let it go, let it go

为什么还往往的还做不到呢？

该怎么办才好.

2011-06-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

怎么啦

生病了吗？

它又来找你了吗？

没关系，只要和自己说：看开点，想开点 ....... 一切还会很好的 :)

只要努力点，再放多点 ...... 它就会走了 :)

180611

2011-06-28T14:30:00.004+08:00

It was Saturday nite! woots.

they were purposely back from sg for the 2-off-days.
no place to hang out in ti,so we had went to ipoh - barroom.
err, a small place for "clubbing". but we have no choice :/
LOL.
the first time we went to club and took for so many pic,as we were too boring at there xD

Birthday

2011-06-21T13:15:00.000+08:00

The one week earlier celebration from the 38gang,

with the big burger which was bought from Vegas.

that was a simple celebration - birthday song, "cut" the burger and snap pic.

12am of 21st june 2011 :

*making wish* :D

my favourite, yum yum!

the fatboi xD

Phobia

2011-06-09T02:34:00.000+08:00

The second time i met the P thing, after 10years ago.

It was totally so horrible, and i can't imagine what will happen

if....

i didn't lock the door =(

started feel insecure with everything.

even one step once out from the house.

started feel worry if i'm alone.

what will it be?

简单？复杂？

2011-06-08T11:39:00.003+08:00

简单的生活一点都不简单

以为每天可以在一起，

不吵架，

不做伤害对方的事 .....

我就很满足很开心了.

酱，有很难吗？

可是，原来一切也很难办得到.

别对我说那是一件很普通的事，有多普通啊？

再普通也伤了我.

别和我说那些千万个理由，我不喜欢！

那通通都不是理由！不是！！

你的一句不喜欢，伤心我通通都不敢再去碰了.

而你呢？

只能怪自己笨，自己太单纯

Sick

2011-05-28T16:50:00.003+08:00

I have been sick for almost one week.

but till now...

it still stick to me.

Should self-blame! as i didn't take good care of myself even i'm sick.

actually it was a good lesson ,

when i found that i was suffer like hell after the drinks.

not much i have drank, yet... i vomit like hell, pain like hell.

huh? i knew i deserved it ;P

but at least.....

i didn't drunk :D

2011-05-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

一滴眼泪

很值得.

起码它把我打醒了

原来担心都有错的！

那一刻开始，我就叫我自己别傻了

地球每一分每一秒都在转

就像人生那样，每一刻都在变

怕，担心又如何？

无论发生什么事都要面对

一切都是上天你给我的考验

对吧？

2011-05-24T22:56:00.004+08:00

My last semester break :(

kinda upset that i'm going to graduate soon,

no more "ponteng" life.

and this holiday supposedly full with what i've planned.

but now, everything had ruined since so many problems occurred.

Sigh ~ have to worry about this and that, and

they thought i'm a superwoman ,

i have to take care of this and that.

Life really sux!

Getting sick and suffering for it now.

no ones taking care, and yet i have to do the housework :(

Being bored with G life, start to dislike with it.

yay! i'm definitely sure I am!

2011-05-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

我怎么啦？

我真的搞不懂

为什么要那么的为难自己

不是说好了要好好疼自己的吗？

我又要和你说对不起了

因没办法办得到

我

很想放弃了

真的很想很想

我要好好疼你，难为了你这三年

让你受苦了

对不起

逼自己一定要放手

这一次一定要！

不再去理他要怎么样的生活了

2011-05-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

I hate u.

I HATE U!

IMY

2011-05-01T09:12:00.000+08:00

2011-04-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today is A Memorable Day

as i never face this situation since i started to stay here 3years ago..

it was so horrible!

thunderstorm , heavy rain .....

and it caused the road to flood!

gosh~ you will never expect this will happen to Kampar~!!

the level of water is damn high

and luckily, my friends were here...

if they didn't go down and have a look,

i think my car will totally gone ><

and now.... i started to scare once it rains T.T

Can you believe this?

反感

2011-04-26T19:41:00.003+08:00

最近都一直一个人，

以前·现在·未来

我都不喜欢一个人

感觉很糟，

没人可以谈天没东西可以做

久了后，

就会心情不好

长大之后，

生后变得越来越闷

是还没找到人生乐趣

还是

每个人的生活都是酱啊？

hmmmphhh....

今天一大早起来心情都很不好

有反感的感觉

那些反感弄得我不想去理

无论在哪里，做什么 ........通通我都不想理了

请

别再惹我

我真的够了 =)

對那個不快樂的自己說聲：對不起

2011-04-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是让自己不开心

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是莫名其妙的忧伤

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是给自己太多的压力

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是忘了提醒自己好好照顾自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是不能为所欲为的做自己喜欢的事儿

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起总是和别人说对不起而忘了自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为悲观让自己不再相信生活

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为倔强让自己受了很多伤

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起因为伪装让自己活的很辛苦

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很久没有好好的利用时间享受生活

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起曾经为了别人而难为自己

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起难过的时候只能让自己硬撑着

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起心那么的疼还要假装着不在乎

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起很多东西我没有学会好好珍惜

忽然很想跟自己说声对不起，
对不起再也找不回原来的自己了

我弄丢了太多的东西、忘记了太多的事情、舍弃了太多的责任......

对不起，对不起，
对不起，真的对不起......

告诉自己
明天太阳依旧灿烂，生活却要华丽转身♥

Only YOU

2011-04-19T16:13:00.005+08:00

Recently, i'm so in love with this man =D

Fuh~ he had attracted me since last time..

and til now, he really step into my world xD

He's so charming, sweet and.... gentle...

2011-04-19T14:19:00.005+08:00

我的世界早已经不是以前 -

以前的那种开心，那种单纯，那种想法

经过几天不停的思考

我觉得我该收手了

我不想再做那个牺牲最多，最笨那个了

我一直问自己； “值得吗？”

我会觉得是值得当我看到珍惜和后果

可是，没有

对不起因为我的自私

其实，你也一样；是自私的

曾经的不会再是永远了

我不会再随时随刻顾你的感受和放你在第一位了

丁当Della - 很爱过

2011-04-18T15:46:00.001+08:00

Thumb ups

Love it to the max <3

Secret

2011-04-17T15:37:00.002+08:00

My Miss D told me a secret just now.

actually it was a secret between her and him.

i got shocked once i heard about that.

even already past,

i really feel very sorry to the one.

and i keep on recall back;

what i have did at that time

whether i have did anything wrong.

yes? no?

i really can't remember at all @@

anyway, it is not important anymore.

but i still would like to apologize - i think you must be so sad at that moment.

*sorry* =)

2011-04-16T14:13:00.005+08:00

Feel to express so many things in here, actually..

but i really don't know where should begin

everything is so messy.

I hate it!

she said it will become a habit when u practice it more frequently.

really?

i cant see the result from what i have done.

how frequently i tried to make it to become a habit, how long time i had used to make it to become a habit.....

but what i got is equal to zero.

perhaps,

nothing can be forced

and

things....

actually doesn't change so easily even it is just a small case...

but...then,

how about the more serious matter if the small one cant even success?

2011-04-06T10:17:00.001+08:00

I need Holiday!

I need it badly~~ !! ><

but it seems no more holiday for me..

as i have to rush for my fyp after the final =[

then, i need to go for intern after the Y3S2

Life really sux!

I hate hectic life, i hate study, i hate stress!!

But, i still have to go on with the stress life in future - to earn more money.Haiz~~!!

Fully understand why senior always asking us to enjoy the study life,

as life is more sux when u have to work.

What i wish is just back to small kid life~ at least i need not have to think so much about 【life】, 【future】and【responsibility 】.

2011-04-03T19:21:00.000+08:00

人真的是很恐怖的动物

Reason?

她们可以变得很快，很残忍，很讨人厌·

后悔着当初拿了真心对待你

结果.....

你的利用

你的自私

你的残忍

我通通都看透了

现在，我只看见你的【恶魔】的样子

你有多么的难看，我真的看到了 :)

和我自己说：伤心几分钟，写完这一页....从此以后你只会是一个路过的人. 你所有的事都与我无关！ :)

*p/s : YOU'r 【deleted】 from my mind

1st April Of 2011

2011-04-01T14:13:00.004+08:00

Happy April's Fool, ppl!

it was my first first time been given fooled till i felt angry

Shit!

not angry cause being fooled, but angry cause of my hungry stomach =[

i will never ever believe anymore even it's not fooling day!

as i realize, actually there's no such kind ppl..even the closer one also maybe wont go get for me moreover others are just in friend position :)

Whatever!

It would be the first and the last time! :)

2011-03-30T15:24:00.003+08:00

I miss home at this moment =(

Miss the time when mum was complaining uncountable things to me,

Miss the time went out with my sis

But i have to stay here alone for few weeks, Sigh~~

Home always is the best :)

2011-03-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

糟糕！

最近对麻将上瘾了，每天都在朋友家留到三更半夜 -玩麻将 @@

在做 Assignment 也想着，读书又想着.... 这么办啊！！！

和她聊了过后，真的觉得一切越来越不值得了..

慢慢的慢慢的，我对【它】没兴趣和不想管那么多了..

让【它】退下来 - 是时候了 :)

别说我残忍，这一切都是【它】自己造成的！

2011-03-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

Decision have been made.

No more dilemma :)

17th Mac

2011-03-20T23:52:00.005+08:00

As usual, celebrating the birthday for our group members,

and this time we celebrated for 3 stars*

by having steamboat.

We can't denied that we are getting older now =[

The last time of us, we were able to eat for so much

but this time,

everything had reduced to 75-85 percent

sad case =(

here come the 3stars* of Mac :D

and the few pics of us, but not all the 38members :D

1900311

2011-03-19T19:38:00.005+08:00

星期六 - 下雨天

下了整天的雨，下午终于看见了太阳

本来这个时候我该在 kl 走着街，可是..... =(

整晚没睡好，下午时该好好休息的...

结果就没睡到，跑了去清洁房间

那个风扇该是他弄干净的，可是他总没时间 even a little time 他都没有空

其实我不能动那些又大又黑的灰尘....没办法, 是时候帮它弄得干干静静的！

结果，我的手又来敏感了，红红的痒痒的 =(

没办法咯，谁叫我不是千金小姐....哈哈

什么都需要做，

该是时候适应独立的生活，免得未来会更辛苦....

但.....这些日子一定不好过，我该用几久的时间来适应呢？

Hmmphh....

他们说今晚的月亮会又圆又大，因它已经越来越靠近地球了吖~~~~~

但,会有机会看吗？

雨一直下不停 =(

2011-03-16T21:34:00.005+08:00

Karma ;

偶尔都会在人家的口中说出来

我也不另外.

一直以来我都很信的，如果你做坏事你会得到坏的回报.

真的吗？

其实我真的看不到,感觉不到.

我只看到的后果就是，我做好的可是得来的是不好的！

到最后最伤还是我自己.

我可以不要再做好或对的事，再伤害自己吗？

2011-03-15T16:44:00.003+08:00

Down with all assignments ; left 2 mid-terms and 1 presentation to go.

at last - less stress, no more rushing :D

I started hate myself, for the stupidity, the kindness.

Selfish is the one that i should put inside my heart! towards everyone :)

hmmph, half year to go~ i'm gonna start my new life in new place :D

*with my new room

*new friends, new colleagues

*and for sure....my new alone life :)

...................

the A really a problem for me ; err, i think no ones will know what's it.

and the A problem - would just stay at present and not moving to future.

Guess i have to move forward by myself.

hope everything goes smoothly .

..........

out of sudden,i realize that guys are 犯贱...err,shouldn't say just guys...hmm,PERHAPS gals too xD

well, is good to be the one - not stick to them.

Reason?

they will feel annoying or not appreciate in the long term.

and even,

you will not in suffer condition when they change from X to Z.

i wish i wish, i wish i can be "the one" ;)

2011-03-13T00:37:00.004+08:00

Tired to the max! after went to be a waitress for his first day of new shop.

even it was very busy, everything blur....

but i enjoyed and learnt lots things there.

at least i knew,

i can stop make myself from thinking non-stop

and

worry about "nonsense" at this moment

now the clock is showing 12.41 am

i realize... i started had giving up on something

out of sudden, "it" asks me not to think about it anymore

since, the decision the result is not make by me.

what i can do : JUST LET IT BE

i know i know

i know i can't worry for so much anymore.

just face the reality :)

110311

2011-03-13T00:18:00.003+08:00

今年的这一天，

代表着是我们的第三年过得没什么特别..

都不可以庆祝

他

昨晚的突然走，我真的被吓到当莫个人信息和我说..

虽然我没和你真正的说过话，可是我心都会觉得难过当我知道这件事..

希望你一路好走 (R.I.P)

今天的下午，日本突然间的地震....带来了4m Tsunami...

看见那些车被冲走的画面，你可以想象人被冲走的话，还可以活吗？

每个人都说世界真的要某日了？

我真的觉得怕

还有很多事我都还没做还没试..

可以不要那么的快吗？ =[

2011-03-03T21:14:00.006+08:00

看着窗外，没星星的夜晚

让我觉得我的世界像天空那样.....那么的黑暗.

那天的到来越来越近了

我不敢想象那一天是会什么样子

所以，

我努力着

改

我应该改的事情,

放

我该放手的事情，

准备着我该有的心情...

面对那一天的到来.

一切都是注定，

没得让我来做主

也没得让我死都不放手

唯一后悔着的是

以前没有好好的处理

2011-02-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

‎'future' doesn't exist anymore,and it has replaced by 'reality'.

I was forced to awake even i don't wish too.

Because,

reality is cruel..

2011-02-22T12:39:00.003+08:00

12.33pm : 我伤了你

对不起.

也许你是对的 - 我变了.

其实你知道我想要些什么吗？

我只想要当我难过伤心时

一切我都可以和你说，你会安慰我..

可是，你没有.

我也和你说过这个问题，你只和我说 : 起码你知道，听到我的伤心和难过.

变得最近朋友知道的事还比你多,因为他们会安慰我 .

我要的只是那么简单..

你喜欢什么都收在心里，

就像你说的，“逃避” - 难道酱就可以解决哪些问题吗？

你的被动，你的安静只会带来更加的多问题和减少我们之间的关系...

你写的那些，我都读了很多遍....

坐在那两个小时，

我想了很多，我也发觉到我变了.

我变得比以前还要硬起来就像你那样.

看到我哭，你都没过来...

我才明白到，遇到问题时一切都要自己扛...

我不懂你怎么想，

我只是觉得很多事我都已经放手让你去做

而唯一就是 '那个' 我放不下的...

也许他说的对，我小气...我想是我恨得太深了，可是我也不想那样也控制不了

就算你要坚持你的，我也没办法我也不会去管那么多了

因为我没那能力和我明白到一切不由我来控制.

2011-02-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

你知道吗？
你那个样子有多么的难看.
我永远都会记住，你那个走过而 "show me the idiot face" 的样子.

我很开心，
因我没像你那样做那么讨厌的事情.
虽然，我没做错而还是被伤那个还要受到酱的折磨

该做那样的应该是我.

但

我没有.

我知道，
做人要善良要有度量
我不会和你计较，
因为
我觉得像你那样做真的很丑很丑很丑
更讨人厌...

我没告诉他
因
我有提到，
他却没反应.
所以
我选着
保持沉默

Happy V's Day!

2011-02-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Happy V's Day People! :D

Seriously, I really couldn't remember what I've done for last valentine.

Everything just so blur , and i clicking in to my photos album, looking for the candle light dinner that i've prepared for last year..were it for V's day or our anniversary?

Found it! It was for our anniversary but where goes the pic for V's day of last year?

I didn't have a picture of it at all =[

He brought me a ring, surprised me actually..i thought he won't get me anything as there's no news from him.

Haha~ the most funny is, i gave him a "bear bear" flower and a card.

He get shocked once i took to him.. His expression was just so funny.LOL

But, He didn't take back here..can't take pic on it and display here =[

We headed to ipoh in the afternoon for movie.

but every movies were FULLED!

what la. so disappointed with it. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

then we took our dinner before back, as there's no any other entertainment in ipoh except movie =[

20110213

2011-02-14T01:33:00.000+08:00

It was a memorable night for me, even there were no electricity.

but we had played something childish, which took me back to my primary ages memories.

It's funny, scary and hot too == .LOL

The games since primary school , as what we called "ice-cream bola juice" ( err,i didn't know the correct pronouncation till now ).LOL , next.... 老鹰抓小鸡.

* Three of us after the games :D

可不可以

2011-01-11T23:35:00.003+08:00

可不可以，在我伤心难过的时候，

你抚摸我的脸，抱着我说你看了会伤心。

可不可以，在我开心大笑的时候，

你捏着我的脸，说我是最可爱的。

可不可以，在我最需要你的时候，

你在门外敲门，第一刻跑来见我。

可不可以，在我很想念你的时候，

你马上打电话，告诉我你也一样。

可不可以，在我非常生气的时候，

你马上装无辜，说你下次不敢了。

可不可以，在我想放弃你的时候，

你在后边说着，请你不要离开我。

可不可以？

我想没有多少人可以做得到。

可能童话故事里才会有~

Failure

2011-01-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

She was right, I shouldn't ask anymore about that.

the more i know,the more sad and disappointed I am.

but i really can't accept the truth.

I felt i were dreaming once i opened it up.

can u tell me that this is not the true?

arghhhh.....definitely i feel myself is a failure!

I'm not asking for perfection , but....the effort that i putting in,

shouldn't be so less for the outcome.

I wonder what i should do next :(

I'm sorry to myself.

2011-01-10T16:32:00.002+08:00

Bad Result

Bad Result. !!!!

I should shoot myself

and

jump down from the building for 10 times!

:'(

2011-01-08T01:30:00.003+08:00

I should be sleeping right now, after a late slept of last night in the 5am of morning.

but suddenly i'm very in a good mood at this moment,

putting mask on my face, listening to the songs,

and blogging!

During this holiday, I'm trying to getting used in some kind of thing.

It's kinda hard, as i have to change it after a long time period .

but well, when thing is forcing me, I have to move forward,

not standing still at the original point and struggling for it.

No choice :/

*Yet, i still can't satisfy after last night k-ing in Q-box..can I have my second round ,pls? :(

她

2011-01-07T12:58:00.001+08:00

她没有安全感,因为距离远

她希望你有时间就能陪她在网上聊天和打电话、让她感觉到你的存在和真实感

因为这是你们唯一能做的

也许你觉得她这样很任性

但请你体谅她、她是女人

她需要关怀和疼爱

能多陪陪她就多陪陪她、能多给她点安全感就多给她点安全感

让她感觉到、就算你们人不在一起

但是心在一起

她是女人、她敏感

她是女人、她爱吃醋

她是女人、她爱耍小脾气

她是女人、她爱听甜言蜜语

她会在自己独处的时候瞎想、脑子里都是那些不该出现的画面

像电影一样、闪来闪去

她会没有原因的哭和难过、因为她怕距离远了、时间长了、感情会变淡变没

她会一个人抱着腿坐在床上默默的看着一个地方、猜想你现在在干什么

她会在和你聊天的时候盼着你说点甜言蜜语哄她开心、她听到之后会一个人笑的比阳光还灿烂

所以、请你体谅她、她是女人

包容她的小脾气

尽量和不该走得近的女人保持距离

她想到一些好玩的事情会想要和你分享

她会记住你们在一起的纪念日

她会告诉你她爱你、然后自己脸红

她会默默告诉自己、要一辈子和你在一起

所以、请你体谅她、她是女人

2011-01-06T11:37:00.000+08:00

你不觉得奇怪吗？

我真的觉得好怪好怪，

这一切都不是我想要的..

而我不觉得我的要求很过分

现在一切就像没了安全感，

可能是时间到了吧 :)

我不去想，也不去理了

我也不想像你讲的那样：没完没了！

就算变得越来越糟糕，我也不想去保持着了

因一只手永远都不可能打出声音来

Helo 2011

2011-01-01T02:58:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!

Due to sick, I'm unable to go for crowded place for countdown-ing :(

actual plan should be celebrating either : genting or club.

end up : stay at ti - snooker "club" ==

By the way, it's a brand new year.

Hope everything goes smoothly, deleting the sadness and accepting the happiness.

I don't want previous life, seriously.

enough with those *emo* things.

Here,

to say goodbye to 2010 :D

Xmas. Part 2

2010-12-30T02:12:00.002+08:00

Heading to my sis's new house in jb after went for sg celebration.

i was started to sick, what a bad luck :(

kinda love her new house, it was so comfortable, cold :D

Never lepak-ing around in jb since i was not feeling well,

but i did accompany my parents and my sis, her bf to sg =D

Daddy and Mummy of mine :)

Cool car :D

Candylicious. Eat Happy :)

Me and my sis :D

Xmas.part 1

2010-12-26T02:04:00.002+08:00

Been to sg for xmas celebration - 5days 4 nights.

we have been to japanese buffet for our 1st dinner there,

then wild wild wet water park for the 2nd day.. next , were the shopping days !! :D

not much photos been taken.

since

the buildings, the environment and the decoration there were more attractive for him to snap.

like always , missed out many pictures to wherever we been :(

Wasted! :(

冬至快乐 ♥

2010-12-22T01:58:00.000+08:00

It's a day afta i finished my final :D
I've been rushed back to hometown,
to kl,
then headed to sg once finished my last paper.
I didn't have the chance to taste the "tang yuan" for this year.
what a waste! :(

anyway, wish everyone 冬至快乐!! :D

2010-12-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

4 papers
2 down, 2 to go.
after the last paper, i'm going for my holiday :D
first vacation : singapore.
Xmas is around the corner, so going there for celebration like last year.
Cause of the date of coming back is haven't confirm yet,
so i have to postpone my new year celebration in penang! :(
when only the time that i can really going there? :(

LOoking at the previous pics, I miss clubbbbbbb lotsa ~~!!
It has been some time that i never go,
so when is the next time?
I should try something new in there....like what guy always like to do in there.? haha
;)

2010-12-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

我可以发脾气吗？

我可以吗？

>.<

2010-12-13T21:21:00.003+08:00

Volcano is going to explode ~

explode~

explode~~

today really a bad day to me!

did my requirement is too over?

i tot this should be done by u!

ok, i'm not stereotype...

but i think every one also will help if they see such situation..

more over....YOU!!

even my housemate, she was helping me to carry, and still.....don't let me to carry those heavy stuff..

I really feel disappointed to the max.

Moving by my own with empty stomach.

My tears didn't role out,but IN....deep inside my heart when i carrying each thing one by one.

you are really deducing the points of you.

perhaps you don't care, as you are always telling me some kind of negative stuff but not thinking a way of improving it!

2010-12-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

“我会改”

“我不会再那样做了”

听到这两行字，我真的很开心也很感动 ^^

对不起，因为我的自私...

我也会改掉那些让你伤心的事

请

不要让我失望 :)

2010-12-09T17:17:00.005+08:00

当两个人的感情久了后，

既然而然联络也减少了..

没了那些报道,

也许只有 “早安” 和 “晚安” 的信息

其他呢？

借口：因为忙着读书，因为忙着做工，因为忙着一天的生活

还是.....

在不一样的地方呢？

有时候，跟朋友聊还比另外一半来得多..... 朋友知道的还比另外一半更快 .....

倒不如做朋友就好了, 竟然他们永远都在第一 :)

2010-12-08T22:41:00.005+08:00

The first plan for 2011 has been ruined,

they told me that all the tickets have been sold out!

what the helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.....

I can't believe this can happened :(

I really want to go, just little bit late to get for the ticket..

and i willing to pay 300 for the ticket, but not 760bucks for the rock zone =X

how long still.....i need to wait after the next year show :'(

Jay Chou : The Era World Tour Concert LIVE in KL, Malaysia 2011

2010-12-08T18:05:00.004+08:00

我不要不要不要不要！

我不想回到从前的我！

我不想再像从前那样什么都收在心里，

一个人哭一个人伤心

可是.....

我无能力可以说出来了

93days

2010-12-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

I love to view my own blog without any reason ==

kinda abnormal of me..

when i scroll down and up again,

something that have pulled my sight; 93days left to our 3years-anniversary.

just like so unexpected, that we have being together for 3-years.

time past so fast , with so so many things did happen between us.

and now I have no heart to think about whether we will going for more far?

maybe i get the influence from you ;

not planning and not looking for future

and so..........

I do hope you will influence me for some others thing too

2010-12-05T20:21:00.003+08:00

今天收到了一个坏消息，

他的夸张真的吓坏我们了.

我不希望他说的那件事会发生，我也不希望你会那么的傻..

一切都可以解决的...

别让他们为你而担心，没人会怪你因已经发生了

现在主要是解决

我们都会支持你的:)

当很多事发生时，你就会发觉到谁是最重要的...

家人给了我这个感觉，

而你.....

那些感觉好像离我越来越远了..

因为我收到的只是失望..

没关系，我慢慢已经习惯了.. 也不会再要求些什么了